Sticks and Stones may Break my Bones…….
its been two days and I still can’t get over it, it is true you know – that humans are fragile beings, I mean we always talk about it, how we can lose everything in an instance, everything is transient and nothing is permanent – but how much of it do we recognize?
We were having rehearsals 2 days ago when my friend broke her arm, and till now it still seems like a dream – did it really happen? It was a perfect day – I was tired as usual from a whole day of dance, the mood was relaxed – nothing felt wrong, no signs, no omens, and it just happened. And I’m still asking myself how could it have happened?
I remember when we were having a sort of team building workshop a few months back and was instructed to jot down our greatest fear on a piece of paper – this was exactly what I wrote “my greatest fear is to get injured – a serious injury that will never seem to go away and can never dance again”, and this is exactly what I’m talking about – well I’m sure her hand will recover given time – we are resilient creatures after all – but I’m sure things will never be the same again.
I couldn’t sleep the night after the accident – what if the person had been me? What if I had broke my arm instead? What could I have done to prevent the injury? Could we have more safety measures in place? Could we have been more vigilant? Are we not having enough stamina and strength? Is it about stamina and strength at all? You know sometimes I would rather the incident occur because of a slip up – not happening suddenly and because of seemingly no particular reason – at least we would have a reason to the occurrence – but now we seem to have nothing at all to base our theories on, everything seems fine that day……
Its moments like this that reminds you that lindy performance IS a life threatening dance after all – and why are we doing these things to ourselves? For what? At what expense? Can passion justify this? Is this being responsible to your family? Your parents? Yourself?
Okie, I think that’s enough purging for one session – I’m be more cheerful in my next post – I promise.
